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Prologue
00:59
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2. |
Chemistries Collapse
03:40
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In the beginning we clicked so quickly.
Everything seemed to align.
We had a connection nobody could see,
But how could I have been so blind?
Every time these fights arise I hear
The sound of separation not too far.
And every time I close my eyes I see
The light of day that you never gave to me.
You're the one at fault here.
It was so crystal clear.
Your personality steered you wrong.
I hope you realize it when you hear this song.
There was a time and a place when we used to relate,
But chemistries collapse as personas clash.
We keep on saying the same things over and over.
Why does this keep happening time and time again?
Every time these fights arise I hear
The sound of separation not too far.
And every time I close my eyes I see
The light of day that you never gave to me.
You're the one at fault here.
It was so crystal clear.
Your personality steered you wrong.
I hope you realize it when you hear this song.
There was a time and a place when we used to relate,
But chemistries collapse as personas clash.
I've finally had enough of being told I'm in the wrong,
And I've mustered up the courage to be headstrong.
After everything that I said you still don't understand.
We cut the ties, you thought you won,
But I have the upper hand.
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3. |
Pressures Building
03:47
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Always thought something was wrong inside of my head.
I didn't know who to turn to.
If anybody found out my biggest secret
I'd be too scared to continue
Living my life.
What would go on inside the thoughts of those that I know?
Is this the time
For me to follow through with honesty and not feel hollow?
I finally found out who I was after I met you for the first time.
If it were not for you I'd still be in this body living a lie.
After that encounter,
I started to think critically about this.
It was all a blur.
I could process all of this in my head.
I couldn't process all that I was feeling.
I asked myself, "Is this really who I am?"
While staring at the ceiling.
I think it's time to come to terms with this.
I finally found out who I was after I met you for the first time.
If it were not for you I'd still be in this body living a lie.
A melody was found in me when I sang it with a rhyme.
If it were not for you I'd still be in this body living a lie.
I'm coming out of my shell,
I'm sick and tired of hiding this.
Insecurities that dwell
Inside won't take a hold of me.
Pressures building,
That won't stop me from expressing all that I am.
Love or hate me,
That won't stop me from expressing all that I am.
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Through all these walks of life,
Our paths intersect.
We change with the wind
That blows to direct.
Of posts and carriers
Who will you come to be?
It doesn't matter because it's all up to destiny.
We try to keep the ones of yesteryear but no use trying.
Because of past mistakes, regrets, decisions never made.
We all move on remembering choices that were short-sighted.
And all that's left to do is ponder on what we've been through.
We spent so much time together,
And what did it mean?
Was it all for nothing?
Why can't we fix this?
Why can't we reconvene?
We try to keep the onesof yesteryear but no use trying.
Because of past mistakes, regrets, decisions never made.
We all move on remembering choices that were short-sighted.
And all that's left to do is ponder on what we've been through.
You were just the carrier.
You were just the carrier to take me to the one that I love.
Flashbacks of you rush back to me
In my nightmares and daydreams.
I just keep thinking of how you were just the carrier.
It's such a simple concept that we shape into complex.
You're not a post in my life,
You were just the carrier to take me to the one that I love.
We try to keep the ones of yesteryear but no use trying.
Because of past mistakes, regrets, decisions never made.
We all move on remembering choices that were short-sighted.
And all that's left to do is ponder on what we've been through.
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5. |
A Summer Spent at Home
02:04
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6. |
Reap the Rewards
03:50
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When we first met I felt obligated to help you out.
I was just doing what a friend would do
And as time passed you got accustomed to
Thinking that I owed you anything,
But it's the opposite.
It turns out I was just a resource for you to abuse.
A tool to dull out and depreciate in value.
You reap the rewards,
Taking me for what I'm worth.
My feelings were ignored
As you kept pushing forward.
I found out about you as the days
Passed on by. I thought it was a phase.
Your behavior only got much worse.
This is the wrong road for you to traverse.
It turns out I was just a resource for you to abuse.
A tool to dull out and depreciate in value.
You reap the rewards,
Taking me for what I'm worth.
My feelings were ignored
As you kept pushing forward.
This little game that you like to play
Won't last too long once I'm gone,
It's my prize to claim.
The day came when I told you
I got so sick and tired of the bullshit you put me through.
You felt it at your core.
We both got flustered but I knew that you'd be losing more.
Now that I'm not your host, you parasite.
You'll wither away while I will be set free.
You don't play a meaningful role anymore.
You can leave your pitiful ways at the door.
I hope you find the true error of your ways.
But until then, you won't any word from me.
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